The blessings never late so Imma give it a raise
My daddy told me happiness is something that you create
But I ain't feeling so creative lately
I just wanna stay home and make beats or sleep for 8 weeks either way
Now my whole life feeling cooler
Now I know that passports get thick when it's fuller
And this life thing don't really come with a ruler man
So I'm not trippin' that I still don't have my own jeweler yet
In other words I don't like to compare
I just turned 20 but my goal's to feel 28
Without the back pain stress and the problems in bed
Just the achievements wisdom and the couple of friends
Until then I'll be like movies with no plot yeah the bad ones
I skip the drama and get right to the action
Looking for enemies I got more friends than Brockhampton
They give me honest opinions I don't deal with the gassin' man
Feelin' like I ain't sometimes
I expect too much sometimes
Tell myself gotta move on with life
Cuz even Drake gets booed sometimes ay
I'm done livin' in disguise
Not everybody's perfect every time
Boutta make sure 2020 lookin' real nice
Can't depend on nobody else to get myself right
And I don't know if what I'm doing's right
It feels good so guess it's fine
You don't like it we can fight
If you can't tell I'm done with tellin' lies
Done with tears up in my eyes
I ain't fakin' no more smiles
There you go
It ain't a walk in the park I prefer to run run run run
I don't care that I fell Imma make this jump jump jump jump
Even if I don't I became too numb numb numb
Even if I fall least I'm havin' fun
Used to never go to the parties
Used to never wanna drink the Bacardis
Wouldn't do it if my parents allowed it
Also cuz I used to hate when it's crowded
Things change
She told me that she ran out of condoms
Told her that I'd never do it without it
I don't wanna get too detailed about it
But we all broke a rule for somebody
Like once twice three times
Things don't change when you try to be wise
People still trash when you try to be nice
So don't expect me to fake anymore smiles for you
I got real smiles to save
If I'm debuting my acting then I better get paid
Man cuz this face ain't free the lies ain't free
Matter of fact I need to get paid just to be me
But
Feelin' like I ain't sometimes
I expect too much sometimes
Feelin' like I'm forget what's mine
This life ain't feel so right
I'm done livin' in disguise
Not everybody's perfect every time
Boutta make sure 2020 lookin' real nice
Can't depend on nobody else to get myself right
And
I don't know if what I'm doing's right
It feels good so guess it's fine
You don't like it we can fight
If you can't tell I'm done with tellin' lies
Done with tears up in my eyes
I ain't fakin' no more smiles
There you go
It ain't a walk in the park I prefer to run run run run
I don't care that I fell Imma make this jump jump jump jump
Even if I don't I became too numb numb numb
Even if I fall least I'm havin' fun
I don't know if what I'm doing's right
It feels good so guess it's fine
You don't like it we can fight
If you can't tell I'm done with tellin' lies
Done with tears up in my eyes
I ain't fakin' no more smiles
